Im confused.

i have a lot of mixed feelings about EVERYONE right now. i dont know. i really need to pack but uggh. dont feel like it &.
i finally know Johny.
that foo; dam i been eyeing him for wayyy long & im sure he knows. this very day i finally went and talked to him buh... its my last day and i dont think that was enough!... I wanted digits you know!? LMAO.
buh hahaha. i saw his myspace on my "maybe you know" friends. && idk... kinda disgusts me. I am so over with all these flirts and manwhores I really need me a good guy. A good guy who knows how to play it right..
&& today well hmm what else did i do?
Oh i said Bye to Him. Wow.... I will miss his touch. His voice. Him. Idk when he hugs me so tight I just cant resist buh fall over and over again. GAHH. Buh im sure he dont even care. Again. MANWHORE.
talking bout whores. i seriously think that give off that image at times. hahaha. Just cuhs i can get 'sexual' i have respect for it you know? I think sex is a very special thing for someone I find in the future and I really dont want to have any bad experience to curse that for me. Get nasty nasty? haha. I owe myself this much to be abstinence & keep all these guys away from breaking my heart into peices. I can tell you a little secret. I still havnt given away my first kiss yet (: hehehe. Do you believe me?

&& oh PUHLEASEE dont get the paragraph up there twisted. Oh my I mean sexual by wordss. oh Lord haha I have no idea how to make it sound any better butt.