I just think

isn't it a LITTLE weird I compare my mood to stocks? LMAO!
BUHTS haye no harm.
pssh as if anyone reads this?
lol.
<\3


funny how after i lost my phone my mood DIED! then i got over it. hahahaha..
just stop reminding mee! :O
im ohkayyy.
today was cute;
nevertheless.
i have so much homework its not even funny though? mann... Chemistry kills.
Back to school night was awesome spent time with my dadduu.
haha that limping old gag!
<3
im so spoiled.

Todays Stock...

This is a total new section mann. Like you know how on tv there are "_____'s corner" man i need a daily stocks corner! lol!!
but really though? new label?
ayo.
ill see.
at the moment i am BLEH.
TODAY WAS NOT SO GREAT.
i lost my phone again :(
sighhh...
i suck.
i need one of those lanyards or something to hang my phone from my neckk.....
i cant believe i lost all my contacts and PICTURES! CRAZY! ..... I had the best of pictuers in there man.
so... wasted.

Todays Stock

was... it started out abnormally high, staying at a good height. Then it dropped dropped dropped! =x No good ayee? It was in WARNING WARNING! With the beeping Flashing red and white lights too!!! Whoa! lmao.
Lets hope tomorrow will be a better day.

Todays Stock

was average throughout the day. Then it got kinda low... I regretted it. BUTTT i was lucky and got it REALLLL HIGh. Wow I was scared to fall; so I released it. But turns out I did not release all of it. And now im loosing some profit! :O
haha overthinking is really not necessary.
sigh. but i still earned some on my hands. so hopefully i am satisfied.




(& NO I DO NOT PLAY STOCKS. you wont get it unless you read my last blog... Maybe I should even make a new label for my stocks mann. Lol! I really did NOT want to add this last part explaining my blog... But haye. =x)

Like is Like Stocks.

You know the basic concept. You buy the stocks when its real down low, and you let it go right when its high high up there. You cannot be greedy or else YOU WOULD GO BANKRUPT!

See; I see my daily life the same way. Everyday I would start out freshhh; and once I raise, I let it go! Haha does that make sence? Everytime I feel happy, I feel like I need to end the day so I can sleep happy. If I stay up too long, something else would make me sad and I would sleep sad! :O

Awh i liked this blog... Well when I Imagined it! But then I keep getting distracted and its HOT in my room!

I swear I could write a book :)

I love blogging! I usually never have time but its a great pass-time (does that even make sence?!) and it helps me be more literate. Nowadays in this world we do not use much long sentences, over years you could see how some of the teenagers now are doing even worse than the years before! Yes yes of course blame the internet, the television, the spoilers! (here I am talking about parents who spoil their kids, NOT a movie trailer! haha)
Lately I feel my writing, poetic, however-you-may-call-it self have been really lost with words. It's became harder to express myself. I think I need to read more books... =x (lost my thoughts!)

Uber Moody!

today was been a bullshyty day. I hate two faced guys. Now who hasn't seen one of those before?! The guys that are all flirty and fun to be around when their Girlfriend isn't around. BUT MANNN when their girlfriend IS around THEY ARE A WHOLE DIFFERENT PERSON! They can turn so sweet to her, so adorable, so thoughtful, so trustworthy. But even so, thats just all an act. The boy would not talk to any girls just because his Girlfriend is around.
Call me moody; but that got me pissed! Well I have a friend who... we have not met for so long yet but we can talk very easily and everything's all good. But wow once his girlfriend is there BOOM he pretty much ignored me! WTF! I would understand more if we were Secret L.O.V.E.R.S (clyde carson!<3) but THATS SO NOT THE CASE!
It got me really thinking; what would happen if (& only IF) my boyfriend was like that?! Now I know for a fact he is not the definition of 'trustworthy' now is he!? But haye I don't know maybe if just maybe you put up that act hard enough, that you are such a good actor that maybe your girl wont even notice.
BUT THE GUY'S FRIENDS?! They are shady; they are the ones who sees BOTH sides of him and yet, does nothing. Friends aye? =x Its a hard thing to be.

UGhh I have seen way many of these scenarios its getting annoying!
& yes, To me in a way somehow I believe this is still cheating; and as said in my past posts Cheating is Cheating. Simple as that. The definition of cheating is

–noun
8. a person who acts dishonestly, deceives, or defrauds: He is a cheat and a liar.
as defined in dictionary.com. Cheating is being dishonest, someone who deceives. Well let me ask you guys a question; why do you guys act differently in front of your lady? Is it because you know that she will mind? If you already know that, why are do still doing it!? You can pretty much say you are hiding the flirty side from your girlfriend, and now is that being dishonest? Is it not like lying to your girlfriend giving them a good guy image, a plastic image, of who you think they want?

=x ladies better watch out.

i know how to moonwalk it out ;D

hahaha messy room/house yeeeh?

<3
i was so excited haha.
had a nice day; SAW HIM. heart heart ayee?
sigh =x he gotta stop messing especially cuhs he taken. gotta back off!
hahahahhaa.


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I wish i was ohkay

but today just aint really that day.


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=x

>.>'
helluh tripping over that male.
really.
haha.
not just him.
but everyone.
wtf.
or maybe it is.
just him

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I miss the late night starbucks run in arizonaaa =/

blue ipodd:D
today was an awesome day cuhs hah I wasnt so darn BLEHH; boys boys boys-lady gaga. I can always refer to that song TITLEEE.
You know? I am bad with reactions. Especially if someone did something embarassing! I hate reacting because I dont want to embarase them or make them embarasse later. I am spelling things wrong but I am too lazy to spell check muahahhaa.

Crush statuss;
I'm tryna ignore! haha. Too, way too many guys running around in my head. I should not let him get me all moody! :O He's no one but the one who can make me smile...



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everytime

I see him. he makes me think so much. Its not about me and him but more like about life; maybe he is the new 'claudia' for me here in san francisco (:
though of course i miss claudia. I tell her everything and she inspires me.

Classy

babe its just a love thangg;
haha that one song.


i just noticed my layout is so classy (: haha.
and the song is love.

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Hints&Signs

I just seem to love the ignorance. Atm

I feel like a foo todayy

I noticed my smart juice is blinking RED! aka its running out and WARNING WARNING!
racism is not needed at all. I hate it when random peoples will say something bad about you just walking right next to you. do you really need to give off that extra hate?! some may say "these blacks/chinese/finoys/mexicans getting on my nerve!!!" (that was in no specific order... and well it may not be in those exact terms but... get the idea). HOW ARE THEY GETTING ON YOUR LAST DAM NERVE WHEN THEY JUST WALKING PAST YOU?! OR IF THEY ARE JUST STANDING THERE DOING NOTHING!? Please see whos the bitch :)
Happiness is to be shared daily, with hugs, smiles, small talk. But Misery just loves unwanted company. Please be aware of where your throwing your junk :)

nahh;

sf take me for who i am or you can suck it :D
last time i checked on urbandictionary.com
xu means a big DING DONG ;D
lmao

yeah; she likes him too...

i have been crushing deep lately. I dont know, I really hope its not because of my LAST one....
but man i love his personality;; he is so chill and haha idk i love how guys flip their bangs it makes me melttt.
wow i think i can say that about my last two crushes. last two? LMAO.
ehh im not really making sence.
but my friend likes him too =/ sucks.
& so far, i envy her.
gah please tell me this is just one of those... beacause-i-just-moved things. Cuhs its killing me! I miss arizona. A lot. I dont know how I fit in here. Its so awkward coming back to a bunch of peoples that I havnt talked to four YEARS.
Been moody lately, maybe its TOM taking over, PLEASE BE!
I try to tell myself life is what you make of it, but right now what am i trying to make of it!? I dont even know.
It sucks how I dont know how to act in front of these peoples, when I am myself its like im scaring them guys off. Cuhs last checked they are into shy and quiet girls....
gah why do i care.... =x
this is such a depressing post
that dont make sence.
dont read.




wow wtf. its already the end.

Crusshing Status

oh yes i am :) buh WAY DEEP ALREADY. in troublee :(
my internet finally back! Sf life is alrighttt. Always been out my parents are getting mad :( I promised to stay home to babysit today; at least my internet is back right?
crushing is so hardddd; it makes me feel so good at the same time makes me feel so moooodddyyy and tired a lottt.
and a lot of signs are showing he dont like me already but the hell i barely know him! lol.
watch i scared him off =/

Animal Fetish!?

wow i think i am slow on this one, but ASIANS WHO LIKES TO CRUSH LITTLE HELPLESS ANIMALS TILL DEATH JUST FOR FUN?! Seriously HOW EVIL CAN YOU GET?! Today i read an article online about a girl who crushed two ducklings with her bear foot, ripping their heads off then stepping all over them. There wasn't an actual video but it was screen caps of one. SHE WAS LAUGHING AT THE END! Are you CRAZY?! I really wish those pitiful little creatures all come hunt you guys down. HOW THE ASDFASDF CAN THAT BECOME A FETISH?! Peoples need a life...

Lust;

I was riding the bus with a best best best freend of mines (: and we were just talking. Hah well I havnt really got to talk to him in 2 years so chyea!
anyways....
i was on the bus with him. Outa no where he asked if I was a Christian. Well first thought i thought he meant if i was a christian or catholic. And well duh I said yes. "Oh really? you cuss a lot..." =/ ohhh.... Yeah I dont really count myself as a true christian. I still dont believe I am saved yet. I know my own faith... Its something I am working towards. Then he said "& you still have lust". First I was kinda freaked out by that! I was thinking 'GASP! he knew what I did with that girl!?' (lmao. jaykay). But he explained that I still had lust because I was attracted to someone Physically (by looks) and not personally. That I am not liking someone for who they truly are. =/ BAMMM in the face. It got me really thinking...

Whenever we humans are asked of how we are attracted to someone, by looks or by personality. Of course we pick personality! I mean Oh Come On! hahahah. Its what makes us look good. At times we would think 'beauty is just the bonus'. Is it really what we think? I can admit that I am a person who looks for the bonus then try to find the original prize... If you know what I mean. =/

When is old too old?

haha before i always thought over 18. YOU ARE TOO OLD! STAY BACK! lmaoo. buh then how can i be so judgemental of someone who sings great got a drum set and guitar &&&& The Looks!? LMAOOO. dam im already a fan grl stop drooling lah!
havent updated in wayyy too long lah. I guess been busy or just... idk. Lifes a bore. is that the word for boredom? LMAO. cuhs last time i checked... (as of maplestory like a million years ago) that a bore is a fire pig. or some kinda pig... HAHAA.
life is a pig for suree(:


Lately I realized the importance of education. I can really tell you I didn't give a rats-tiny-little-black-piece-of-waste about education (grr reen i almost spelled edumacation -.-). buht idk highschool just change that about peoples... Well SOME people lahh! Im in a crappyass school at the moment and im thinking about transfer already! AND THE SECOND WEEK OF SCHOOL ISN'T EVEN OVER! haha. oh cali cali. how can you do this to me :(

Mommy told me I couldn't go outa state... Crazy! I HAD BIG DREAMS YO!! NO LIE.. i was thinking of New York, Big Apple HERE I CO..... (excitement dies off...) suckass. :( but again. Am I too selfish? Our family is going through great changes its been hectic throughout these past few weeks. I noticed we always found something to blame. we blamed money for hating us o.o that somehow it finds a way to escape our brown fingers. We blamed life itself. We blamed everything we could. I noticed our family is like that... We just try to blame something else to just at least let us... i dont know. If we blame something it's like at least we KNOW why, its no longer a 'mystery'. Haha I get so mad when my sisters blame US for her tripping over soemthing. she would say stuff like "WHY DID YOU PUT THAT THERE?!" and start crying or something when she obviously knew it was there and was just stubborn, as if she can go against the facts. Don't us humans naturally do that? We make other things look as if they were the bad guys while trying to lift ourselves up. Its a crazy world out there... Life is a complication.

You know what? Never take life for granted. Really. I noticed we keep begging the Lord to help us. Tears & all I swear! But then is that really necessary!? In a way we are EXPECTING him to give us all the goods. But shouldn't we be happy that we have what we have now? Oh man the more I think about it the more it connects... Because last sunday, the first sunday I went back to church here in san francisco. We talked about the book of Jonah. where that one dude (I think his name was Jonah? o.o) had a plant and he took advantage of it. Right when God decides to take that away from him he blames God pretty much... Thats crazy! But if you really think about it. Everyone takes things for granted. How often do you find peoples thank God for the bad things!? But in our (Christians) eyes we should always be thankful. Even for teh bad. The bad is in a way very good (: Oh now don't I sound mature?