When is old too old?

haha before i always thought over 18. YOU ARE TOO OLD! STAY BACK! lmaoo. buh then how can i be so judgemental of someone who sings great got a drum set and guitar &&&& The Looks!? LMAOOO. dam im already a fan grl stop drooling lah!
havent updated in wayyy too long lah. I guess been busy or just... idk. Lifes a bore. is that the word for boredom? LMAO. cuhs last time i checked... (as of maplestory like a million years ago) that a bore is a fire pig. or some kinda pig... HAHAA.
life is a pig for suree(:


Lately I realized the importance of education. I can really tell you I didn't give a rats-tiny-little-black-piece-of-waste about education (grr reen i almost spelled edumacation -.-). buht idk highschool just change that about peoples... Well SOME people lahh! Im in a crappyass school at the moment and im thinking about transfer already! AND THE SECOND WEEK OF SCHOOL ISN'T EVEN OVER! haha. oh cali cali. how can you do this to me :(

Mommy told me I couldn't go outa state... Crazy! I HAD BIG DREAMS YO!! NO LIE.. i was thinking of New York, Big Apple HERE I CO..... (excitement dies off...) suckass. :( but again. Am I too selfish? Our family is going through great changes its been hectic throughout these past few weeks. I noticed we always found something to blame. we blamed money for hating us o.o that somehow it finds a way to escape our brown fingers. We blamed life itself. We blamed everything we could. I noticed our family is like that... We just try to blame something else to just at least let us... i dont know. If we blame something it's like at least we KNOW why, its no longer a 'mystery'. Haha I get so mad when my sisters blame US for her tripping over soemthing. she would say stuff like "WHY DID YOU PUT THAT THERE?!" and start crying or something when she obviously knew it was there and was just stubborn, as if she can go against the facts. Don't us humans naturally do that? We make other things look as if they were the bad guys while trying to lift ourselves up. Its a crazy world out there... Life is a complication.

You know what? Never take life for granted. Really. I noticed we keep begging the Lord to help us. Tears & all I swear! But then is that really necessary!? In a way we are EXPECTING him to give us all the goods. But shouldn't we be happy that we have what we have now? Oh man the more I think about it the more it connects... Because last sunday, the first sunday I went back to church here in san francisco. We talked about the book of Jonah. where that one dude (I think his name was Jonah? o.o) had a plant and he took advantage of it. Right when God decides to take that away from him he blames God pretty much... Thats crazy! But if you really think about it. Everyone takes things for granted. How often do you find peoples thank God for the bad things!? But in our (Christians) eyes we should always be thankful. Even for teh bad. The bad is in a way very good (: Oh now don't I sound mature?