Nah cause you can do better then that. You don't want that pity love. How you gonn go get in the game, but then let everyone else know you got played? I've told you to be careful from the beginning with that boy; and I guess thats why you don't want telling me stuff about him cause you know I will say "I told you so from the beginning" or well theres also circumstances, the situation. But hun nah just cause we ain't talking no more its stupid sitting here watching you posting all those stuff up. Like I said, you don't want that pity love. It's not too cute letting the whole earth know you just got heartbroken, scare guys away cause they don't wann be the next big topic and get hated on.
Calm down, watch your grounds, pick your own self back up. You gotta know better than that if you were to stand there and say your going into my position now.
&& ha yes I know things. I see things. I don't need to stalk THAT MUCH to know things. LOL
information booth.
- Doll.
- hello world :) Should I warn you I blog like hell? Bi-polar(bears) babeey <3
Aug 31, 2010
Aug 22, 2010
Yeah, my heads clear.
I tried making up excuses and lies to make it all seem okay, to make it seem normal. But fuck, that shit ain't. I ain't tryna get myself played. Sorry, but what you both did... That's disgusting me. Im sorry amy, I know you think its all friendly and crap, but theres a limit. We best friends and all, but that really is just disgusting. I guess what goes around comes back around cause I admit I pretty much did the same to ya. We're even now? hah...
I still will love you both very dearly (: I learned to move on and let things go, but I really just don't want to lie to myself making myself believe in lies and look like a fool. I don't. & you should be proud of me on that one (:
I still will love you both very dearly (: I learned to move on and let things go, but I really just don't want to lie to myself making myself believe in lies and look like a fool. I don't. & you should be proud of me on that one (:
Aug 21, 2010
Yeeeh... Cept not really.
This girl never learn frolm her mistakes, really... Never. Its crazy how I was talking to damali yesterday about EVERYTHINGGG from the past to the present. and I realized how I told her back then, I let the same person did the same gawdam thing to me 5 times in a row, and I still didn't learn shit. Ended up having a "forced getaway" kind of thing. Hah.
Dammm;;;!!! AHAH. Same goes hun, same goes. Its always this gawdam cycle.
This is gonn be a crazy decision. Might ruin everything but then I really don't even care anymore. Nothing is there anymore.. Between ALL of us. Seriously, the fun and smiles and laughs, they are all forced now. Its not fun anymore.
It hits me in the heart like crazy how you can do that to me, and act like its nothing. Yet you tell me you went through the same thing so like, why you being a motherfucker?
Dammm;;;!!! AHAH. Same goes hun, same goes. Its always this gawdam cycle.
This is gonn be a crazy decision. Might ruin everything but then I really don't even care anymore. Nothing is there anymore.. Between ALL of us. Seriously, the fun and smiles and laughs, they are all forced now. Its not fun anymore.
It hits me in the heart like crazy how you can do that to me, and act like its nothing. Yet you tell me you went through the same thing so like, why you being a motherfucker?
Aug 15, 2010
no more facebook hun, no more, NO MORE! ;O
ohgawd its tempting.
I love when I have a sudden sprout of courage that makes me do things, things that are good for me, even though I know I might regret it later on for my personal pleasures... But it is very beneficial (: LIKE DISACTIVATING MY FACEBOOK! HEHEHEH. I love that moment of confidence that makes me feel like I can do whatever, and I just do it. I love that.
I love when I have a sudden sprout of courage that makes me do things, things that are good for me, even though I know I might regret it later on for my personal pleasures... But it is very beneficial (: LIKE DISACTIVATING MY FACEBOOK! HEHEHEH. I love that moment of confidence that makes me feel like I can do whatever, and I just do it. I love that.
Had the most relaxing time in the back of dada's truck
Spent 2 hours outside, enjoying the sun and reading my seventeen magazine.
Tbh, I was relieved that my neighbors didn't call the popo on me. Seriously though? Haha. What would you think if you found a girl laying in back of a truck in front of your house? Hahahaha.
Tbh, I was relieved that my neighbors didn't call the popo on me. Seriously though? Haha. What would you think if you found a girl laying in back of a truck in front of your house? Hahahaha.
Oh come on, I told you this before.
You shouldn't be messing with a girl like me. I really ain't worth it. I feel like I don't deserve you, the things I do.. I saw the look in your eyes when you walked away from me. You don't know how bad I feel about this, about everything. She say you don't deserve me, that I could do better. But hah isn't it just too cliche, I feel like I don't deserve you instead, because I made you do lots of the things you do. &.. Wow.
I don't know. We never meant for it to this far. But I guess we both know this just can't continue. I mean, actions DO speak louder then words, and both of ours said everything.
I don't belong in a relationship, or anywhere near one.
For me, lets play it safe... Let's Play. But right now, its more like game over.
You really did mean something to me, and I hate how we have to come to this though, I shouldn't have went back in... the first time. The second time. Wow.
I don't know. We never meant for it to this far. But I guess we both know this just can't continue. I mean, actions DO speak louder then words, and both of ours said everything.
I don't belong in a relationship, or anywhere near one.
For me, lets play it safe... Let's Play. But right now, its more like game over.
You really did mean something to me, and I hate how we have to come to this though, I shouldn't have went back in... the first time. The second time. Wow.
Aug 13, 2010
When things go stupid
it goes stupid.
Suck it up :)
SO IRRITATED TODAY THO! OMFG! ASDFASDFADSFADSF a few more days of school left, and I haven't had the spare time to start on any of my homework yet. Going to get my schedule tomorrow... Sigh. I kind of wished I transferred.. I don't remember how to "stay in a school" anymore >.>' It creeps me out.
Suck it up :)
SO IRRITATED TODAY THO! OMFG! ASDFASDFADSFADSF a few more days of school left, and I haven't had the spare time to start on any of my homework yet. Going to get my schedule tomorrow... Sigh. I kind of wished I transferred.. I don't remember how to "stay in a school" anymore >.>' It creeps me out.
Aug 9, 2010
Aug 8, 2010
Rants: [Day5] Haters
LOL! I dislike this world. uggh... when peoples say "I love my haters, cause they make me famous". Bitch, shut up. You know you ain't lovin' your haters thats why you always yelling all over the place. Saying "Ima fuck that bitch up" YAWWWP. Major contradiction.
I just don't like that word, when its used like in the way above ;p but jokingly, i got no probs widd it ;3
But haters though? They are called haters for a reason! They hate. && Ooohhh hate is such a big big word! Just like love.. I try not to use "hate" that much, because when you really hate something, deep down, thats crazy, and it takes a lot of energy to hate.
ANYWAYS; haters though? They annoying, period. Like, calm down, you just as ignorant as those mofos who be racist and yelling all over the place. Shut up (:
<3 love ya :D
I just don't like that word, when its used like in the way above ;p but jokingly, i got no probs widd it ;3
But haters though? They are called haters for a reason! They hate. && Ooohhh hate is such a big big word! Just like love.. I try not to use "hate" that much, because when you really hate something, deep down, thats crazy, and it takes a lot of energy to hate.
ANYWAYS; haters though? They annoying, period. Like, calm down, you just as ignorant as those mofos who be racist and yelling all over the place. Shut up (:
<3 love ya :D
You know all those disasters happening in all these villages around the world?
the ones that barely anyone know about, because they are so small, no body cares. But every single time, these villages get wiped out. Hundreds and hundreds die....
Sometimes I think this is a test from God, hes testing how much his children will do for their own kind. Its like the rich (the bigger cities) and the poor (the sad little villages). We are all selfish beings who don't care about anyone but ourself at times. I can't say everyone is like that, because there wasss that one other guy who stayed at the bus stop the other day watching over a dying bird, waiting patiently for the animal control. Those peoples give me hope.
But see, those villages out there, there is rarely hope. They barely have anything themselves! So what do they do after everything they've owned disappear? I can't imagine...
Its sad how us, being the richer ones, dont do anything. Yeah we may be poor compared to OUR surroundings, but if we were put into a village like that, we would be the richest around. Why can't we stop complaining but instead help out the ones less fortunate?
Look at the bigger picture, there's a bigger meaning.
Sometimes I think this is a test from God, hes testing how much his children will do for their own kind. Its like the rich (the bigger cities) and the poor (the sad little villages). We are all selfish beings who don't care about anyone but ourself at times. I can't say everyone is like that, because there wasss that one other guy who stayed at the bus stop the other day watching over a dying bird, waiting patiently for the animal control. Those peoples give me hope.
But see, those villages out there, there is rarely hope. They barely have anything themselves! So what do they do after everything they've owned disappear? I can't imagine...
Its sad how us, being the richer ones, dont do anything. Yeah we may be poor compared to OUR surroundings, but if we were put into a village like that, we would be the richest around. Why can't we stop complaining but instead help out the ones less fortunate?
Look at the bigger picture, there's a bigger meaning.
Aug 7, 2010
Rants: [Day4] Our Generation
our generation... depends too much on technology! I hate how we throw our money around like its nothing, we take everything for granted. && Uggh I really really hate how theres so much divorces and bullshit around the house... Our generation.
Uggh, I swear Apple is going to take over the world one day. I will stay a PC.
Our generation? We are fools, bringing this world down. Sorry, just a bit pessimistic, but that isn't always a bad trait.
Uggh, I swear Apple is going to take over the world one day. I will stay a PC.
Our generation? We are fools, bringing this world down. Sorry, just a bit pessimistic, but that isn't always a bad trait.
Aug 6, 2010
Rants: [Day3] Racism
Its so funny how I have blogged so much vents on this subject, wow. Its like I don't even know how to start. Racism... I think peoples who are racist have too much, as of the past two days, "love" and "confidence". "Love" for their own race, expressed in a very "confident" and cocky way, thinking that they the shit.
I hate racism. Really though, we are just different by a color, a hair, a nose, etc, but at the end we are all human! Why do you have to share your hate? Turn others smiles into frowns? I remember all those times, and now still, when I would feel hatred dug into my skin. Those words, those snickers, those mean remarks made about an asian person. Come on, grow up. I remember last year at school, I would hear peoples yell "IT SMELLS LIKE CHINESE PEOPLES UP IN HERE!" when the hall was super crowded. Bitch, get a fucking grip. Do I yell it smells like your people when I smell the weed? When I smell that must?! When it freaken smells like hobo town up in here... Dammm;
But see that doesn't make up your race, I know it dont make up mine. Cause that has nothing to fucking do with race. Look around, you got a homie thats been up in jail? So did we. You got someone whose been raped? So did we. You got someone whose been busted because of drugs and hustle? SO DID WE. All I can say is, we all went through the same things, but in different ways. So why you hatin'? Thinking you the shit, thinking you rep your race nicely? I disapprove, you making your own family look bad.
I hate racism. Really though, we are just different by a color, a hair, a nose, etc, but at the end we are all human! Why do you have to share your hate? Turn others smiles into frowns? I remember all those times, and now still, when I would feel hatred dug into my skin. Those words, those snickers, those mean remarks made about an asian person. Come on, grow up. I remember last year at school, I would hear peoples yell "IT SMELLS LIKE CHINESE PEOPLES UP IN HERE!" when the hall was super crowded. Bitch, get a fucking grip. Do I yell it smells like your people when I smell the weed? When I smell that must?! When it freaken smells like hobo town up in here... Dammm;
But see that doesn't make up your race, I know it dont make up mine. Cause that has nothing to fucking do with race. Look around, you got a homie thats been up in jail? So did we. You got someone whose been raped? So did we. You got someone whose been busted because of drugs and hustle? SO DID WE. All I can say is, we all went through the same things, but in different ways. So why you hatin'? Thinking you the shit, thinking you rep your race nicely? I disapprove, you making your own family look bad.
Aug 5, 2010
Rants: [Day2] Confidence
Hypocrite.
Confidence is so beautiful. Let me start that off(: because it is! Confidence is what makes a girl shine from within, but then there is also confidence that makes peoples hate you. Thats the confidence that makes you want to show off a talent, or being too cocky, or whatever, etc etc. yeah at times it can be real cute and all, but then being human beings, we hate others if they try to do too much to show off a talent. && Well lately I've learned to love that confidence, that one where talented peoples show off. yeahh... you may see it as annoying, I see it as beautiful talent (:
BUT there are also peoples who show off their "talent" when they have no talent! and eeh that kinda gets annoying you know? But then haye, you have to give them SOME kinda respect... I mean, they got balls man.
I really hate those who talk shit just because others are more talented though, like bitch grow up.
(:
Confidence thoughh, it can really get annoying at times. But yet, it is one thing that makes a girl look her best :)
Confidence is so beautiful. Let me start that off(: because it is! Confidence is what makes a girl shine from within, but then there is also confidence that makes peoples hate you. Thats the confidence that makes you want to show off a talent, or being too cocky, or whatever, etc etc. yeah at times it can be real cute and all, but then being human beings, we hate others if they try to do too much to show off a talent. && Well lately I've learned to love that confidence, that one where talented peoples show off. yeahh... you may see it as annoying, I see it as beautiful talent (:
BUT there are also peoples who show off their "talent" when they have no talent! and eeh that kinda gets annoying you know? But then haye, you have to give them SOME kinda respect... I mean, they got balls man.
I really hate those who talk shit just because others are more talented though, like bitch grow up.
(:
Confidence thoughh, it can really get annoying at times. But yet, it is one thing that makes a girl look her best :)
Aug 3, 2010
Rants: [Day1] Love
Love, I hate that word, because humans like us seem to mistreat and mis-use it a lot. I mean, when you mean it, its really nice. But its been used too many times as BS that, wow, it gets kind of irritating don't you think? Love, what is love? I think 1 Corinthians 1-13 describes Love in the most beautiful and simple way possible. The way peoples see it nowadays, it gets so disgusting and so confusing and just... TOO MUCH! Yeah, Love IS a big word, but seriously. It can be very simple, if you really ARE experiencing it...
I think everyone just need to take a bit of their time and just really sit down and think about that word. Seriously. Cause all these adults nowadays, marrying, saying "I Do", and then divorcing like its nothing. You may say "things ended for us, feelings died off, it was time for us to split and move on", NO. If you really loved someone, you would know its forever. If you loved someone, you would try, do everything you could, to keep that thing you guys have going on. Even if it means to give each other time... If it didn't happen, then that means you guys BOTH didn't try hard enough. Can't take your partners bullshit anymore? Love supposed to bypass all that. Really, if you actually knew what Love was, you would know that it is very easy, very simple, very beautiful. Pure happiness. And I am not saying that in a naive puppy love way, I am saying it in a old grannny-lovers kinda way.
I really hate the media, btw. The way how it portrays Love. It disgusts me.
I think everyone just need to take a bit of their time and just really sit down and think about that word. Seriously. Cause all these adults nowadays, marrying, saying "I Do", and then divorcing like its nothing. You may say "things ended for us, feelings died off, it was time for us to split and move on", NO. If you really loved someone, you would know its forever. If you loved someone, you would try, do everything you could, to keep that thing you guys have going on. Even if it means to give each other time... If it didn't happen, then that means you guys BOTH didn't try hard enough. Can't take your partners bullshit anymore? Love supposed to bypass all that. Really, if you actually knew what Love was, you would know that it is very easy, very simple, very beautiful. Pure happiness. And I am not saying that in a naive puppy love way, I am saying it in a old grannny-lovers kinda way.
I really hate the media, btw. The way how it portrays Love. It disgusts me.
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