Nope I lied.

024. First best friend → Stephanie Liang

not Wendy Luo.

Man I just came across her facebook and I realized this girl has been my potential everything... It all started in 2nd grade. I am pretty sure she will have no idea that I would be writing about her right now, but wow. She has no idea how much she means to me.

In the 2nd grade, I transferred here to American from China. On the first day, she offered to show me around the school and be my friend. She was the most popular girl in our class. She instantly became my best friend, or I became hers... Her WORST bestfriend that is. I remember how she would stick with me through thick and thin. She introduced me to everyone and stood up for me, loved me and held me. The things I did to her... I took her place as "the queen of the class" haha if you can even call it that. I took her place, took her friends... Made peoples turn against her and even though, she loved me. It got to a point where all her friends hated her and they were all following me instead. What a bitch... I don't remember what happened exactly, but there was one scene that was stuck in my head. When she would keep following me, trying to be my friend instead of hating me... She followed me to the bathroom and I was so disgusted I walked out and told her to get lost, I was then followed by 2 or 3 other 2nd graders who... Were once so loyal to her, now her enemy.

I remember how she used to help me with everything. Let me copy her homework. Hung out with me when none of her friends liked me... Stood by me when everyone teased me. She was my savior... & I turned against her.
Wow 2nd graders were so evil -.-'
I feel like I owe her a lot... you know? I feel like I killed her childhood, when she was the light to mines.

2nd grade... wow. I don't even think she was there anymore in 3rd grade. I never even noticed she was gone the following year, or whatever. I don't even remember how things ended up, if we were friends again or... what happened. If anything even ended... Or did she just disapear. I miss her, a lot. I can't believe I did all taht to her, and only in the 2nd grade.
Wow it was AMAZING seeing her again, she looks the same you know? Coming back to the bay and then seeing her in front of her store... Still the same place. I remember I had a picture of her in the 2nd grade and in the back she told me to never forget her. How sweet was that ;x I wonder where that picture went. I really need to talk to her again, catch up, (:
I can't believe I saw her again. You missed out on 6 years of my life... 7? 8? ;x

Adventure of the Day; Failed.

Wenxi you do too much >.>'

99 Questions

001. Real name → Wen-xi Xu
002. Nickname(s)→ Asian, WenWen, WinnDixxi, Doll, Poopoogirl (LMFAO<3 the story), but I like Leopard ;3
003. Zodiac sign→ Leo
004. Male or female → Female
005. Elementary →E.R Taylor
006. Middle School → Martin Luther King & Trailside Point
007. High School → Cesar Chavez & Thurgood Marshall
008. Hair color → Black & Red/Brown
009. Long or short → Short&Long ;3
010. Loud or Quiet → Usually loud....
011. Sweats or Jeans or underwear→ Jeans
012. Phone or Camera → oh man. Camera.
013. Health freak → Wish.
014. Drink or Smoke? → I stay above the influence.
015. Do you have a crush on someone? → Heh what can I say ;3
016. Eat or Drink → Shooo~ BOTH.
017. Piercings → Five.
018. Tattoos → Nope; but if I were to get one, it would be a tattoo on the bottom of my Right foot.

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane→ Yes'am
020. Been in a relationship → Yes&No
021. Been in a car accident → No
022. Been in a fist fight → Yes'am

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → 9 year birthday gift.
024. First best friend → Wendy Luo
025. First award → Second grade? I don't think they gave out awards in China. Not sure.
026. First crush → LOL Kindergarden breh breh.
028. First big vacation → Dont remember, used to go on vacations a lot with mama back in china. They were some beautiful places ;3

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to → Sisters?
030. Last person you texted → Krystianna
031. Last person you watched a movie with → New Generation ;3
032. Last food you ate→ Rice with shrimp & eggs
033. Last movie you watched → The Hangover (TODAY! FINALLY!)
034. Last song you listened to → Til' the day I die- Trey Songz
035. Last thing you bought → Bagel
036. Last person you hugged → Shawna

FAVES:
037. Food → MEXICANOOO FOOODD ;3
038. Drinks → Pepsi.
039. Clothing → Forever21
040. Flower → I don't know much about flowers o.o
042. Color → Blue & Purple & Teal
043. Movies → Transformers 1&2. Iron Man. hmm what else? Lol. both robot movies! OH & AVATAR!
044. Subjects → Algebra & English ;3

IN 2008….. I
045. [x] missed someone
046. [x] celebrated Halloween
047. [x] had your heart broken
048. [x] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone
049. [ ] someone questioned your sexual orientation
050. [ ] came out of the closet
051. [ ] gotten pregnant
052. [ ] had an abortion
053. [x but I should always live life without regrets] done something you’ve regretted
054. [x] broke a promise
055. [x] hid a secret
056. [x] pretended to be happy
057. [x] met someone who changed your life
058. [x] pretended to be sick
059. [x] left the country
060. [x] tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
061. [x] cried over the silliest thing
062. [ ] ran a mile
063. [ ] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
064. [x] got into an argument with your friends
065. [x thats what I thought, but Hate is such a big word...] Hated someone
066. [x] stayed single the whole year

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → Just ate.
068. Drinking → Water
069. I’m about to → Waste my night ;3 and GO TO SLEEP EARLY! FOR ONCE SINCE FINALS CAME! HEHE
070. Listening to → The Kids- B.O.B
071. Plans for today → Had finals in the morning. Went for A.P Bio Orientation right after school. Movies with New Gen.
072. Waiting for → This weekend ;3 going to be so fun, shopping 3 days straight, looking for that perfect dress ;3

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? Maybe
074. Want to get married? Yes
075. Careers in mind? Therapist, teacher, counselor, instructor, dancer, what else?

WHICH IS BETTER WITH A BOY/GIRL?
076. Lips or eyes → Both, omg. make me drool
077. Shorter or taller?→ Taller
078. Romantic or Spontaneous→ Spontaneous
079. Nice stomach or nice arms→ Stomach foshoo.
080. Sensitive or loud → Loud
081. Hook-up or relationship → as of right now, I am not looking for a relationship. Dates are fun, but not sexual plox ;)
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant → Both.

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → Almost... But nahh~
084. Snuck out of your house → Hah. Don't really need to. Not THAT dramatic. Just walk out :)
085. Held a gun/knife for self defense → Nah...
086. Killed Somebody→ LOL. yeah, my last ninja mission.
087. Broken someone’s heart → .....
088. Been arrested → Nah.
089. Cried When someone died→ No. -.-' I am heartless. The only time I've been to a funeral was when I was a little kid, when my grandpa died. & I didn't cry at all... I am a bitch.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → Yes.No.
091. Miracles → Yes
092. Love at first sight → Nope.
093. Heaven → Yes.No. I will not lie...
094. Santa Claus → LOL. At its limits
095. Sex on the first date →No. not cute.
096. Kiss on the first date → Hah. You tell me

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → (:
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → At its limits.
099. Do you believe in God → Yes.No To be honest. I do believe in him... but I can't say I love him to a point where I am willing to change my life for him. I am trying.... Or at least that's what I tell myself.

Aztea came back for me ;3

awh. haha. I feel special. I get to see the pre-ordered bestfriend right before school ends, even though he shouldn't even be in school anymore. I feel ya lovin'
haha.


(:
having a pretty good day though, been in the computer lab for 3/4 of my periods so far. WHEEEE!!~

Leopard

I like nicknames. Why don't I have an OFFICIAL nickname that everyone calls me? NICKNAMES ARE COOL.



i liked leopard. It actually comes with a background meaning. LOL.

wah.
&& Doll. that was last year. && winndixxi... that was last year too. wtf. my "tag" names?! HAHAHAHA.
Doll was cuhs I got a big head like a bratz doll & I like to dress up xD
WinnDixxi was just... cuhs. HAHA.

&& gee what else?! there was wenwen. xixi? asian?
LOL so i was called "the asian" in arizona cuhs theres so little asians and well, i am the coolest asian around DUH -wink wink-
HAHA.
yeah i know. im so funny.
My life feels so incomplete without a nickname ;(

FINALS!

what killers.

i want a one piece swimsuit now ;3 because they are so gawdam sexy!!! no lie, look at this one. haha. thats HOT. Yeah i know, what cheaters, this is not a one-piece, just connected by a piece of nothing. haha.

but seriously though, I think I want a one piece now ;3 bikinis are getting boring, seriously, how many designs can you come up with? geez.

SWIMSUIT SHOPPING ANYONE?? ;3

LOL.

I am just so great at choosing friends, I really am. hahaha. Thats what I get, and now they know. fml. HA.

Yeah its annoying dont you think? Gee. But I knew it was gonn happen like I DID tell her not to tell them, but then I knew deep down she was already telling them. LOL. peoples these days... make me have such a bad view on the city peoples. But gee, I know better, I knew it though!!! ;O
haha. I am not really mad, more like laughing cause it was so predictable. Now I feel more like an ass.

Ohkay look, not like I am making some gossip or crap. I just told her how I felt about the whole situation and thought she shouldn't tell anyone because I rather not hurt him more. And BAM. I hear about it TODAY. LOL. goodjob cupcakes.

My bedroom

was made to be a dance studio, wooden floor and a glass mirror that reflects the whole room. haha.


thats whatsup >;D

Is that how the fuck you want to get my attention?

by making me so tripped up, getting me mad as fuck, playing your little games, pulling a bitch fit?
Seriously, so gawdam annoying. I am TRYIN. I am trying so gawdam hard, but you just HAD to fuck it up.

Cause because of me caring now, you think that what you did 2 days ago caused it? Fuck. So is that why you wann pull that once more on me?


Not Cute.

Stop making things so difficult

and spare the both of us,

gosh, at least spare me -.-'

I will put my to-do list on hold

I just don't have time to finish anything and that fact kills me slowly inside.
No I cannot concentrate on finishing my bag, or reading or making videos or WHAT.SO.EVER
cuhs, SCHOOLS ALMOST OVER!

wow what a year...


(:

hehe lets do a highlight:
peoples are STILL talking about it, the assembly. Ohmygawd. Hehe. Yeah I went up there to have fun, fosho. & to well... just kill the stereotypes too ;3 and show peoples that I aint just another FOB.

but dang, till now, they are still talking about it, peoples would come and recognize me and say the same thing every single time, "dang she was hittin' it on the stage during the assembly"
hehe Yeah Ima brag a bit right here, but it makes me feel good no lie. I made a big imprint in their brains, I am sure I surprised a lot of peoples. && there I was thinking I made a fool out of myself when I saw the video! ;O which I still think I did, but haye. (: Like I said, I first went up there to have fun, like I tell everyone else, "they wanted girls up there so it didnt seem like it was all guys, so the girls went up to have fun :) and thats all. hehe" which I really did. I really did have fun and thats all that matters at the end. Hehehe.
No lie though, big step toward myself, because I have always been self conscious, even at work, during classes, I am NOT 100% full out dancer. I was... 90% on that stage. I blanked out. Haha. I had so much more I wanted to show ;3 but..
ANYWAYS.
it was fun.
oh gawd. where am I tryna go with this post. LOL

Lately;;

I been smiling, and jumping, and screaming,

and being Happy
a lot.


(:

I got the chance to force mama into listening to me again :D

ohkay well. it was more like... she was stuck in the kitchen doing something and I just kept blahbing to her ;) haha. does the trick. its all good.

&& Its such a blessing to go and read to my sisters. Family. Ohwhee;
Days like these make me smile, no matter how tired, how sleepy, how broken down and stressed I am. (:


Ohgee CORNY MF!
lol.

Bitchassness. I am hating these gawdam ignorant peoples who say crap and tried booing this guy off when they all fucking wimps

Bs. I hate the racism. Not the racism toward us asians, buh the asians who say fuck about the brave black soldiers who came to support us today.

When Love is an Eternal Meaning

and not just a word, not temporary,
But Forever.
When kids mean our future,
and not annoying little brats
who we blame for all wrong doings.
When waking up in the morning
is a show of grace from God, our Lord.
Oh how exciting; Lets stand up, dance, and praise His name.
When the sun shines bright
and the kitchen smells of bacon, pancakes, and coffee.
When the world seems so colorful, and in rejoice
of all smiles, all kindness, tenderness, and blessings.
When Sex was only meant for two lovers
who would say "I Do"
every single minute of time, and mean it from the bottom of their hearts.
When dating means Courtship
and not just "another one", but hopefully "The one".
When a family is many people,
together as one heart, one mind, one soul.
When it takes a village to raise a child,
and everyone puts in a helping hand.
When an opposite sex is not put to use as an object.
When HUMAN BEING is not put to be used as an object.
Compared to, outweighed, or murdered.
When One's smile, care, trust,
Love.
is never at stake, because it is just THAT strong.

Looking back'

At my girls, everyone seems to be somewhere... Anywhere. Everyone seems to be staying steady at their path, but where am I?
I miss you guys dearly...



Its funny how best friends can turn into strangers.


Just another Phase?