Bad Habit

its back on. What? So I haven't done this in awhile and now I can't stop myself? Oh what, is this a monthly thing now? Those sweet words, that voice, the fuck. I am doing this all over again, whose the next victim?
-.-'
Beast ready for hunting?
the fuck.


No I am also talking about the other beast too, the one I left here in sf years ago... I feel it pounding on that closet door wrapped up in layers of chains and locks. Its coming back. I feel it.

I want to rip out your heart and take a bite.

wenxi: OOH SHE CUTE! SHE GOT MY HAIRSTYLE! OHHAYEE~~
peter: Yeah, hers look better
wenxi: HMMPH! haye thats not nice. mines is awesome ;3
peter: well hers dont got split ends everywhere
wenxi: OMG I KNOW RIGHT! I GOT HELLUH SPLIT ENDS! -checks hair *frantically-
peter: IM JUST JOKING! you dont have split ends!
wenxi: YES I DO! -flips through hair in extreme paste-
peter: Mens don't notice stuff like that! stop it wenxi!
manuel: yeah! mens don't notice tiny stuff like that
wenxi: BUH I HAVE LOTS OF SPLIT ENDS! -flipping through hair crazily now..-
peter: -checks wenxi's hair too-
15 seconds later....
peter: ooop. heres one.
wenxi: SEE! -freak out! faints-
peter: JUST ONE! CALM DOWN! ONE OUT OF A FEW MILLION STRANDS!

lmfao. it was funny, had to be there. >;D imagine it in COMIC STYLEEE. hehehe. Ohkay well, I didn't faint... But everything else was true ;p off my nutsx. IT WAS FUNNY.

* HOW DO I EVEN KNOW THAT WORD!? lol. another one of those words that are there in the back of your head.. (:

So...I kinda... ;3

hehe.
Oh let me have a little summer fun will ya?

"OH HAYEEE~" lmfao. SEXY MOFO!

Don't worry, its ...

ON TO THE NEXT ONE!
lol.

I am LOVIN'' my alice in wonderland theme right now. Hehe. Funny because I HATED the cartoon, it made me have nightmares I'm sure... But I LOVED the movie! Hehe. Probably of its awesome graphics ;3 but haye haye... I was really scared of the cartoon ohkay?! It was just... disturbing to me in so many levels. && GEEZUS HAVE YOU SEEN THEIR GAME?! Well there was this game I saw a few years back of the "Bad Alice" where she goes to that place and ends up killing everyone. Wow, that scared me to tears..... Haha -.-' not cool... but haye though, the movie was a whole turn-around! Not disapointed at all, I loved it. I wish I watched it in big screens though, tsk tsk. It would have been a great great experience ;3

Got inspired

Times like these make me want to stay up all night and cover up every single blank paper in the house. Haven't "created art" in awhile.


Haha nah, I don't want to call it tagging, I am NOT sticking it anywhere or putting it anywhere as if calling it my property. Nopes, thats bad bad & I learned... ish. Haha. Keep away from all that now (: Be good girl. Cause I realized you cannot just force peoples to look at your art, you can't just stick it in their face like that...


Making sense? No?

Ehh. Can't sleep.

Lalala.

WHY DO I FEEL SO EFFING CRABBY RIGHT NOW.

I hate facebook

sigh summer school is so tiring, first day and im already pooped!

no life.

lalala~

A guy stopped me today when i was walking up the stairs... He just kept staring with a confused expression as if he wanted to say something buh cant. After having me stare back with an awkward eyebrow, he said nevermind and left. I felt like a bitch...

I am So So SOOO satisfied with my summer schedule.

I feel so proud because I am doing so much with my time. hehe. IM A BIG KIDD NOW! I wear PULL-UPS!


;D

RE: Fact:

"Jealousy is a sign you like someone"

funny, because whenever I get jealous about one of my crushes, I would back up, cause that'd mean that I am too into them already. EEEK
;x

I just found my new habit:

I seem to look-away-and-doggie-my-hands whenever



LOL. You just have to be there to see it, I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE IT! Signature move? haha

GASP GASP

i missed out major time. The pictures looked so nice and THE WEATHER OMG! haha shirtless guys. They got no abs, they better start working out! COUGH COUGH duckateers, you guys should know better. I have to train you guys, turn you both into sexy ducks! LOL. jaykay you guys already sexy >;D haye hayee.
Man I miss db already ;x and its only one week without them! I wont even be going on friday though since Im planning to go to church. and haye thats a GOOOD thing since I haven't been to church at alllll lately ;x eeek.

Feel like I have so much on my gawdam mind though, no lie. I am blaming a lot of things... Complaining a whole lot too. Gah. I need to chill and enjoy the summer weather. SAVE THE DRAMA FOR YO MAMA >;D
haha.
I am so cute.
;3 DUH.

jaykayjaykay.

I am SO BOREDDD;
Everyones sleeping early today, tired from db ;3 and well summer school tomorrow for some of you
lalal tomorrow, I don't know what I am doing tomorrow. Hmmm. wait I am tripping; I do know. TOMORROWS GONN BE POPPIN''
First New Gen, Then Work, Then JT FOR SUSHI! all back to back to back. Yay, busy bee ;3
I hope to see you tomorrow ;3 keep my mind off things yeah? hehehe.


(Sowwieee. I am posting these lame posts up here on wenxiloves instead since I've decided to fill da-ily with OTHER stuff. I don't know if thats a good idea now, because I like to share my stuff! And well see I have wenxiloves for artsy stuff and all that anyways. Yeeeh''
Ayai. Change again? Ill go one week with it at least thoo' Goodnight :D)

Fuck.

A lots been happening lately all around me. Hah I am lying... I just complain too gawdam much. But Its really sad how its all the same thing, OVER AND OVER AGAIN. This is with all of my problems though, its sad how every time I don't learn.


&& the sad thing is, I am doing exactly what she did. All those years ago.... && I am doing it today. What the fuck is wrong with me?


Yes things changed, peoples changed. I am sure I can say this every single day of the year and let it be true, because peoples grow. The energy of this earth is CONSTANT ;3 haha. Chemistry geek. FINALLY LEARNED SOMETHING! Jaykay. haha. I guess I know what I am becoming, and still would say WHAT THE HELL AM I BECOMING!? It's just so sad, because all those things I've worked on in Arizona... Its no more. & You just don't know how bad it is... To once know, but then it became Knew, because now you just doesn't know it anymore. To have an knowledge, but to loose it...


& the sad thing is, I think I will still "solve" all these problems the same way. Just like I did the time before this...


Oh man, don't I pity myself...

I am reading some of my older posts

Wow its amazing, to see my own writing. I mean.... I am an alright writer after all! I've always consider myself as illiterate... && I can feel myself becoming more & MORE illiterate by the second! Looking back inspires me ;3 hehe. Need to read more, to add more knowledge to this brain of mines!

Random Fact: I ONLY clean SUCESSFULLY at night. When I am actually focused and stuff.

Haven't been the best person lately...

Well at all now has there?
Bad. Bad doggie bad ;(

I'm sorry.... EH.

Maybe, I want to torture you.

hah bitch. Arent I evil?

got from wenduu; (UPDATED!)

 ***QUESTIONS WITH STARS NEXT TO THEM ARE ONES I'VE UPDATED. Turns out I skipped them the first time around;x EEEK SOWWIE******

Honestly, do you really love the last person you said i love you to?
Haha. You tell me what love is.

Have you ever received a hickey from the last person you kissed?
Last person I kissed was my baby sister.... LOL

Have you ever held hands with the same sex?
Yessem ;3 cutiepies.

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Spring; love is in the air right?

What's bothering you right now?
I want some freaken ritz right now!

What are you up to tonight?
Watching Emergency Unit

Do you like watching scary movies?
Under a few circumstances; depends who I watch it with. The lighting of the surroundings, how close I am to the screen, and... yeah. LOL

If you could, would you hookup with the last person you texted?
Arriana? LOL.

What were you doing at eleven last night?
Home. Computer probably.

Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
Yes (:

What side of a heart do you draw first?
Left.

How often do you say you're sorry?
Hah lots, but seems like I don't say it enough when I really need to.

Ever deleted someone off of MySpace?
Yesss'mam!

Do you think someone likes the same person you like?
Haha, who DO I like?

Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?
YES! omfg. How embarassing, especially when you are writing something private to someone but you accidentally send it to twitter because you are so used to pressing "send-contact list-T.W-enter" LMFAO.

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
Before they fell asleep, a few hours ago?

Do you play an instrument?
Nah... Not really, I've tried so many times but failed

*Do you like fire?
I used to like sitting there just watching the flame...

*Do you miss someone?
I think I miss every single person that has ever been in my life.

*Do you think they miss you too?
Haha, hopefully some do.

*Have you ever seen your school counselor?
Yessem! I love talking to school counselors that actually care. hehe. How else could you get through high school!?

*Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
LOL when I was a kid, now who hasn't?!

*Do you still talk to the person you last dated?
Yeah,

*Do you like someone?
I doubt I have a SERIOUS crush right now. I'm not even gonn stress about it.

*Would you rather date an actor or an athlete?
Athlete. Actors can be very...

*What are the first 2 digits in your phone number?
81

*When's the last time you saw your number one?
Forgot whose my number one o.o myspace?

*Were you single this summer?
THIS SUMMEr?! LOL. hun this summer barely started, I have my time. But Yes I am staying single. Just gonn mingle and have for-fun dates here and there, but nothing serious I hope.

*If you had a pet goat, what would you name it?
Goat. (:

*Does your last ex miss you?
He says so...

*Would you ever consider living with anyone on your top friends?
haha why not?

*Ever kept arguing even after you realized you were wrong?
LOL. Yesh, fucking pride thing... dam asians.

*If a girl kisses another girl are they a dirty hoe?
NO WAY! Its called they like to have fun. Shit. Don't trip.

*Why do you hate the person you hate the most?
Hate is a VERY huge word

*When you say you don't care do you mean it?
Never. LOL. I AM a girl after all ;x

*When meeting someone new, are you afraid they won't like you?
At times, depends on what I see of them.

*Has anyone ever told you they love you and meant it?
So I've heard. I don't believe it. No matter how much they think it's true, I just have to say they do not know what love is. OR that I am the one who doesn't..

*Ever been given a lap dance?
HELL YEAH~ freakyshit. LOL. Sexyshit. I'm Lovin' it. I believe the first time was at a party, truth and dare. Those boys know how to booty pop babye~ LOL

*Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not any more?...

*Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
NO. Hun, thats not love

*Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Nope, no regrets.

*Are you generally a happy person?
Yes, hehe. I'm known for being always happy and energetic ;)

Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
HELL YEAH! I don't like smokers

How's your heart lately?
Haha. Cold -.-' apparently.

Where is your sister right now?
Hannah & Emily is in bed. I think Karynas too, or that shes outside in the living room with my mama.

Last person you text messaged?
Arianna

What are you listening to?
Deja Vu -Teairra Mari

What color are your eyes?
Brown

What color is your bedroom floor?
Its Wood o.o

Were your last five kisses with the same person?
LOL.

Who was the last person you high-fived?
Probably Janessa

"Love isn't a decision.. It's a feeling.."

I read this when coming across this one blog
premierepassion.blogspot.com
haha talk about stalker. Wenduu~~ I hate peoples who take the url you wanted, but they don't even use it. Ugh. But then its very very nice to read others' blogs, especially when they are such good writers. Heh.

This quote means a lot to me you know? See, I don't get how others can be in a relationship, but really, can you say its from your heart that you "had strong feelings" for your other "half"? I don't know. Maybe it just hasn't hit me yet, but I think its really lame how a lot of the highschool relationships are nonsense. Its like they go out with each other because... They can. That its cool to have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Shit I don't know, but I think its lame because you probably don't even know what feelings are yet. The only "falling" you know is from tripping over a rock, and the only "hurting" you know is the sting and pain that comes after the fall... OF THAT ROCK. GG. Scrape that knee.

Its like those relationships, being with each other is a "decision". Well duh... But I mean, Its like "oh she likes me" or "oh he looks fucking hot" so you "decide" to like him. you "decide" to pursue him/her and you "decide" to go out. Its not a feeling at all, its so materialistic in a way... Do I make myself clear?
No I never do, but believe me, it sounds so much more nice in my head. haha.

At times I feel like "dam... Maybe I should just get it over with and go out with this guy, maybe I would end up really falling for him. maybe it wont be that bad after all. Its all a try.. Nothing serious". But then again, thats bullshit. That seems to be the american way of relationships nowadays. Sigh...

There little cute things that I see

still make my heart tingle a little... Hehe

When I start imagining it happening to me, wow. The feeling... Its scary. I wan't that feeling, but I am scared of that feeling. I tell myself to stop instantly, I tell myself its foolish, that its unreal.




You know, I envy those who are not scared to share their opinion. The ones who knows what they like and dislike, at least. The one who puts their heart into it without caring about their surroundings.