Fuck.

A lots been happening lately all around me. Hah I am lying... I just complain too gawdam much. But Its really sad how its all the same thing, OVER AND OVER AGAIN. This is with all of my problems though, its sad how every time I don't learn.


&& the sad thing is, I am doing exactly what she did. All those years ago.... && I am doing it today. What the fuck is wrong with me?


Yes things changed, peoples changed. I am sure I can say this every single day of the year and let it be true, because peoples grow. The energy of this earth is CONSTANT ;3 haha. Chemistry geek. FINALLY LEARNED SOMETHING! Jaykay. haha. I guess I know what I am becoming, and still would say WHAT THE HELL AM I BECOMING!? It's just so sad, because all those things I've worked on in Arizona... Its no more. & You just don't know how bad it is... To once know, but then it became Knew, because now you just doesn't know it anymore. To have an knowledge, but to loose it...


& the sad thing is, I think I will still "solve" all these problems the same way. Just like I did the time before this...


Oh man, don't I pity myself...