RE: I Hate It When

Lol I realized i helluhhhh didnt say myself rightt. LOL! I said something about pride or loose your cool or something right?
I meant To show your true feelingss; cuhs, aint it?
Hahh today kelly asked if I thought of her as a bestfriend, close friend, good friend. It was just kinda awkward boo! I mean yes of coursee :) lol. But then LIKE EVERY OTHER TIMES I can tell you I am afraid to admit my feelings; cuhs once you do then you are able to get hurt! :O (not like you wont be hurt even if no one knows... But!)
Haha I havn't admitted to have a good friend in since... 4TH GRADE?! Actually Welll I remember back then I was besties with Wendy; and wow I miss those times =x
&& still at those times I remembered that we would write each other letters during the summer and it used to be the cutest things! We would go over to each others houses and personally deliver the love notes :) awhh. She would always put stuff like "your bestfriend, wendy" Which I would hesitate not knowing what to put..! JUST BECAUSE! I forgot when it happened... But I was just really shy of admitting my feelings you know? Especially when thats how you can get seriously hurtt.
& Last year when i was really close with Reena I still hesitated. Gees. I am sure using that word a little too much? I think it all just have to do with what i've been through... I am always uncertain of what I feel of someone and I would keep asking myself "Do I really like him/her that much?" andd it just gets me tripped upp! With Reena it was also the same... It took me a long long long time to finally say it that she was my bestfriend :). The time when she decided to sing the song Remember Me This Way dedicating to me during the Concert at school; I realized how much she is doing for me and i realized my life would suck without her.
Awhh kelly<3 of course you are a good friend to mee; I even said yes :D lol! Well I can't call you a BestFriend because... just because. And I'm sorry if You are hurt reading that But then I hesitated because I personally take 'bestfriends' very seriously. Haha pssh what other relationships CAN i take seriously?! Obviously not any of my eyecandays. WELL THATS WHY THEY ARE CALLED EYECANDIES! LMFAO!
I hope you understand? I mean well I dont even know if I can call anyone bestfriend atm...
I may always be joking around and putting up an image that I take things all as a joke; but then When it comes to any sort of relationship, I guess you can say deep down I am a very serious person. Well with relationships anyways. & By relationships I dont always mean Girls&Guys. LOL! Friendship is importanttt; what can i say.. I miss CFM!