"lajdsfklfjdkasfjd &this crazy bitch named WENXI, kept running lights, HAHAH! :)" quoted off wendys blog

I am so tired. I couldn't even come back to blog yesterday!! Anywho. Let me summarize yesterday (: or should I say this morning? It was awesomely amazing. We got out of the house around 11, met up with Wendu, Amy, Simon, & Steven. Went ice skating, park, and pretty much wasted time around downtown. We walked to Union Square, oh my it was... something. It was so lovely & nice & it was like something you would see in the movies. There was a outside skating rink & a REAL CHRISTMAS TREE! (fascinated) IT WAS HUGE. whoaaa. Haha that place made me feel lonely. You know that one quote or saying "Feeling lonely when everyone is around you is the worst loneliness" or something? Yeah it was one of those quotes. There was love & warmth everywhere cept ayo I just felt lonely you know? Well kind of. I was not with my family... && he wasn't there. (wow he? he who? I dont know). But I was with my friends though! Which was awesome (: in everyway. We got cider & went to the wharf. LOL we were pretty much like lost puppies just wandering around since it was hours until fireworks && well FISHERMANS WHARF IS A HUGE PLACE. We came across this one little closed in place where it gave off a little french style feeling o.o there were benches and tables and bars and restaurants in there & there were so many lights, it was amazing. I loved that place, we pretty much just sat there playing "confessions". && Well I also went into the bar o.o WHOA. haha felt so badass yesterday night >;D anywho. Confessions. I realized I lied. I named a few of the guys I "Liked" But then I realized I don't like them... I mean. I do. But I cant say that I like them because they were all eye candy. && I also mentioned Andrew. Which was hillarious now thinking back, that is such a lie atm. I am over him right? I dont even know who I like anymore. I am not serious with any of my eye candies. They are STRICTLY EYECANDIES. Oh&& I confessed how I cried over Him. Woww >< I think that was the first time I cried over him too. That was huge of me to come out to say it. I cant believe I did that haha! Buht it felt good.
Went to the wharf afterwards & took pictures (: saw calvin & jessie & thomas & their crew. It killed my mood in many ways... which is not to be mentioned! Just walked around the whole place pretty much until 11:30 we went to get food and came back onto the bridge LUCKILY found a spot and waited (:
11:58 I cant believe the New year was coming already and the old has past. This year was.... really something. I lot of things happened. Freshman year at Chavez.... Oh man I still remember winter break was when I realized I was madly liking Eddie. Haha. That was exactly a year ago. I really thought that was something. Believ e it or not what I had for him was a big transition for me from being little elementry puppy crushes to.. actually thinking and looking into my feelings you know? Its hard to explain. && I am sure Andrew was part of that transition. Haha it was awesome when I started liking from some ghettoass posers to skaters. LOL. Whats next? Oh you pretty boy.
2009 was also the year I realized what friendship was, && I know for a fact I am still growing in that. I also got so close to God, then pulled away, and longed for him again. Man it was a up-&-down thing for me. I also went through some of the best "family" moments in my life. For once I felt like it would work you know? But then after them move I am just being a little brat about everything and now I just don't know anymore. One of my goals is to regain the trust and relationship with my parents... It wont be easy. But I will try.
In 2009 I have known so many things I was so thankful for. But I have to say... You may have known, but that doesnt mean you still know.
That is something I learned this year.