Remember the Days

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[One] ChiFilaMese,Today I finally went and revisited out blog... Which has been like a ghosttown for awhile... I miss you guys. Wow. Remember this picture? This was the day ChiFilaMese was officially established. I know we all have dreams, we were once kids, && still are! We may have been naive, silly, smartasses, dumbasses, sexybeasts, monters, lovers, haters, the shitzzz babe. LOL. && we still are. We are one... but yes as you guys mentioned... Its been awhile. && I know how things are different now... I can feel it too and I am thousands of miles away! We may have had dreams but, right now its so hard. Dreams of a star? (or STARS?) haha. Its all good hun. You guys are all so very talented, you guys don't have to rush it. Ily&Imy. Babes take care.

[Two] OhCuties.
This was so long ago. Oh man... Sarah & Andrew! They are so adorable hehehe. These two are my cousins (: They are all grown now... But I found this on facebook today and I can't help but save it SOMEWHERE. I remember she gave me that dress shes wearing too! It was my PJs ;3 hehe. (HandMeDowns :D_)
Andrew looked so cute back then hehehe. I don't think I lived with them yet... back then. But yes I lived with them when I first came to America (: I remembered it like it was yesterday. I would walk by their old house (they don't live there anymore!) && Remember all the times I spent there... I loved that house. I always want to rent that house again, just because. I love it there (:

[Three] Reen
You were my partner in crime babyy. Oh actually no... You stopped me from crimes & supported me all the way and helped me to do better. Babe I adored you so. I miss how I would vent to you and you'd complain about how I would repeat the same things over & over. && I DOO! lol. I miss how you inspired me to do better, to work and try my best. I missed how you would keep me up, never bring me down. You kept my self esteem up and looked after me in every way. You were not scared to show your true feelings, you were never into the whole highschool pressure. You were always there for me, even though you were busy with your life & I was busy with mines, we somehow found time for each other. No we may not have been the kind of friends who would tell each other everything, not the kind of friends who would talk on the phone for hours and hours each day. We barely kept in contact because there was no need. It was ohkay the way it was, it was all fine. We did everything together, hehe. && babe we were both camera hookers! Work it baby girll (: your smile brightened my day. We were like opposites, in a way. I liked to party & have fun & I didn't like doing work. You, you did work. You worked your heart out, trying your best in everything! You cared about your education & you had such a wonderful family... Believe me babe you made me think of life in a whole new way. I started to study, to try and care. && you would come and have fun with me. We were like sisters, I would spend hours at your house each day, even your parents would think it was weird if I wasnt over! Hahaha. I loved your family btw. They pretty much took me in (: hehe. I miss your FOODDD. && the crazy dancing. Singing. KARAOKE! BUBBLEWRAP! lol. I can always show you my true self. The times we've laughed together, cried together, hehehe. Your so beautiful. I can't want to see you again. Imy&Ily way too much.

[Four]Love.

Awh I remember you were born the first day I met your mama! && I been there ever since (: EXCEPT NOT ANYMORE. dfasdfasd ;( I miss you so much. I remember the first night I took you home. It was raining and there was lightning, you were so scared! I was in the laundry room with you the whole time, I did not want to leave you at all! I tried to hold you down but I almost cried knowing that it was the first night away from your parents. Babe I felt so bad ;( && At the same time I was happy because I finally had my own doggie! It was all a dream. Hehe and earlier that day me & suzie went to get you. I had all the supplies, the leash and everything ready. It was such a sudden decision. I just took everything and said "MAMA I WANT TO GET THE DOGGIE!" then I ran out of the house. At least Jay was home (: hehe. I went and got suzie and started toward Jays. Then I got lost -.-' because I forgot how to get to his house! Took us almost an hour to get there WTF. I had to carry you home because you were so scared leaving his house, you didn't move at all everytime I tried to put you down! We went through the park & you almost pooped on me, thanks hunn...
You wasn't potty trained && you were a little brat! LOL. little one, you wouldn't listen and made me so frustrated! One night you kept barking and kept the whole family up, I was forced to put you out into the yard... oh man it must have been scary for you ;x I woke up and I ran to teh backyard to get you hehe.
Times past, & for a reason, I had to give you back ;x & it was the hardest thing to do. I remember cuddling with you on my bed and just cry....
I miss the times when I would let you loose around my room and you would pee in that one corner... GRRR. && you would go right next to me and sleep right next to my chair, hehehe. You were such a cutie... I miss you dearly ;*(
I used to cry the hardest begging my mama to let me keep you. I couldn't stop crying when I dropped you off at Jay's house and just... left you there. That was the last time I ever saw you. You wanted to come with me... You jumped the highest you could and couldnt get out of that cage... It was the hardest thing to loose you. The days after those were killers... The times when I would come home and hear you barking even before I open up the door... Those were hard. I would see your water bowl and start crying. Your shampoo... leash.... food. The places you've pee-d. Poo-d.... wow this is starting to become a longgg post :x