Oh Meanies

You know that feeling you get while crushing? I love that crushing. I don't trust myself to walk. so let me chase, don't stop running.

But I love that feeling though;; The feeling of crushing. The temporary high (:
I look everywhere for you. Maybe its a excuse to look away from all these other guys, because in my head I tell myself these other guys are bull. Having a crush is like giving me a goal. these goals help me stay on track. I feel so foolish sometimes..

Oh anyways. I guess this will be a collage of random things :)
Sometimes I get emotional, bipolar, sensitive, maybe I am on the moon o.o
Everything seem to blind me now, all these foolishness. Why can't it be simple? Why can't we be nice to each other? It doesn't have to be this way. No being mean and bullying others is NOT the best "im cool" image there is. I hated that image. It was me in the elementary-early middle school days. Wow those days I wish I could just leave in the past, cept now that I came back to this place, it is like I have to go back through my past. I love alone time on the bus, home, just walking or doing chores. It lets me think. && those times make me realize that, I don't have to be mean just because everyone else is. I can do things my way and hopefully make a change and let others realize that we CAN love. && in this case, love is a very wide-range word. No hun, I am not talking about "the love of your life" I am talking about, share the love, share the joy.(:

oh gee I got distracted && I lost my train of thought. sigh... Need to keep focused. I got so much homework too ;x sigh.