Yeah, it really IS Lame

how I tell myself that I am not ready, for a guy to be in my life with the title of "boyfriend".
Haha CAN I BLAME THE EX AGAIN!?
oh no.
thatd be too unfair. && plus, if he sees this, I WILL BE DEAD! haha. Me & Him both knows that it isnt his fault. Its just all the things I "been through". which aint shit o.o but it turned me to this. I used to be the little girl who believed in fairytales. Actually I still do, in a way. Yes I still wait for that day when a prince will actually come on his horse(POWERlol) & pick me up with his muscos. Bring me away. We can go elope. We can have the honeymoon of our dreams. We can travel the world.
But I've grown enough to 'know' that my prince charming will show up later in life. Not this moment. & yes yes its just no harm to-
but reallyyy.... theres no point. Whats courtship without the want of marriage with that person?


oh now I just sound really corny.
GJ.
lemme take all that crap back.


ooop lost train of thoughts.
GG