Secrets

kill hearts. trust. love. truth. false.
fuck secrets.
stop passing it on.
its like a curse.
now they have to keep it.
have the tempt to not tell no one.
have to pretend they dont kno anything.
havnt you heard.
sometimes, 
its better to kno less than to kno more,
especially when it aint 100 true.
&& without content, without permission.




ohkay so i cant complain how pplz come to me for stuff. I love that, but gawdam. I really dont want to kno secrets when others told you not to tell. it shows me you cant be trusted. it makes me go "well she/he can do the same for me...." and spill my secrets. uhuh. Not cute. way turn off. 


so yes yes lately. since we are on the friends subject, i feel like an ass. Been feeling selfish and expecting a lot and been complaining and comparing a lot. Fuck, where my manners go!? LOL. No fuck it though I am not gonn take it all my fault. I aint gonn lie, I have been drifting apart from everyone cuhs of my tight schedule. I am sorry! But MF stop complaining and come along and help me deal widd it? Ohkay fine you dont have to, but see I am being an ass and expecting peoples to. No you dont have to. But shit, stop complaining! I SHOULD BE THE ONE COMPLAINING. I am the one having to deal with all this crap, not you. I am the one running back and forth from place to place and trying to fit too much into my schedule. Yes yes I am the one who did this to myself. are you really gonn go and tell me shit like that? COME ON. I really just want some support instead of fucking complains. I've got enough, stop making it worse. Really. I dont need your bullshit too.
I do already feel bad. stop shuffing it in my face. I know I am drifting away and I know I have no time for anyone anymore ;x.... then I go and expect too much by suggesting and expecting you guys to come see me at practice. bs.. i know. Spoiled bitch.
buh I helluh wish you guys would make an effort. at least support? -.-' gawdam if thats the least you could do, id be so happy.