P.S amy;;

I feel like the love I want from you isn't going to me, but to her, & the most suckiest part is that she's very close to me, like I love her as a friend, I really do, she's what I can consider a "best friend", but I wouldn't wanna steal a best friend from someone else, it's just wrong. I love talking & sharing secrets to her, it's like, I can't live a day without talking to her :) To me, me& her are THIS close -crosses fingers-


remember those times? when we would be so... LOL. over the dumbest guy (: haha. && no course he was something special, and I am hating how I can't seem to bring myself back to that moment of innocent love, of when it was so easy for me to become so emotional, so... touched. By it all. I dont know what happened but I cant seem to bring myself to that point anymore... && I miss it. && lately I still feel like, a bitch. Compared to how I was? Wow. its shameful. What the hell am I really doing hopping around like this? I don't know. But hun I miss how close we were, && I wish we could be that close again cuhs at times, I feel like we drifted apart, and that now its you & the homies, not us. I really can't complain though, I have been really really busy. Really.... But I miss those days though ;x I do. I suddenly decided to scroll down on your blogs today, trying to remember those times when we would shed tears for the same guy. hah Seriously, its a shame how I cant even remember it.....

But, you know how we got closer, because of him? && now I guess that cycle between us all, that.. thing. is not there anymore. Now we are all just friends, but then, just because of that, I dont want us to fade away.

:(

&& I do consider one of my closest friends. Really. && yes I don't like to use the word bestfriend, because BEST is only 1. && if i have too many, thats not BEST. you know? && right now, I cant really consider anyone my best friend, because I just don't like putting peoples in ranks. But really, you are one of my closest friends :)

hah & no, nothing really happened. I just scrolled down and read some old memories &&
(:


hun u like my soul sister(: