To Be Honest

I am disappointed to the max. I Loved you, and I know how big of a word that is... But I did. I looked up to you, you never gave up. You always saw the best in everyone. No... Im lying. You didn't, but you tried. & you didn't hide that and the fact you try to make yourself better inspired me. The fact that you wouldn't care about what others think of you, but only of what you thought of yourself, that made me crazy for you. Girl, you used to notice all your own flaws and try to do whats good. You always seemed to look deeper in things and tried to better yourself. I see you have given up on that, and that ... makes me sad. You inspired me, homegirl. You made me feel like there is good peoples left on this Earth. & hun I can't think about living without you cause you make my day that much better. You can make me laugh, we can do the craziest things together, we were partners in crimes, haha we had the weirdest ideas and the fact you loved the smallest things, like grass, was too cute. I loved everything about you, and I am sorry if you felt like you've been taken advantage of by anyone, by anything, by me... If you felt that way.
I miss you, I do.
I really hate this situation, where you are hating UNITED. I have nothing to say about that... Cause that is my heart, that is my baby, we created this team from scratch along with everyone and the fact you have to be bs about it along with everyone else hurts me. I thought you loved that team too... But now you just straight up did a 360 turn. I guess I never saw how much UNITED hurted you... Yeah you could leave it, I won't force you to stay or tie you down in any way, but is it too much to ask for you to not diss it? I know, everyone else is, but why you?
I miss the way we used to chill and hang and I miss how you'd snap me & amy back to reality if we were too caught up on guys or drama or whatever. You always tried to do things for others benefits and mann.... Heh. It takes a lot. I don't know what happened seriously, but I guess that was all just a phase. No one knows yourself better than you, but hun don't give up and "fuck the world". I miss you, and if this is you, the one who wants to hate everyone and diss everything and just want to be a bitch about it. I guess I am fine with that... I just really missed the one who would know her wrongs and try to fix it... You once inspired me. If anyone was ever "not fake", it'd be you. If anyone was worth living for, itd be you. If anyone made the world seem like a better place, itd be you. You know how few there is left, the ones that make the world seem like a better place... & I don't want to loose another one.

Don't give up. I know you may be tired of everything. Tired of the bs of the world.... But hun, one person can make a big difference, and your my one person.