You just left. Today’s going to be the last day. Its officially over.

I will miss you, but I promise to myself, and you to that I will keep it to a minimal. I will stay strong. Yeah I won’t look back at the hurt, but instead, look back at all the times we spent together that just made everything that much better. Like the first day. When we can just lay there at terrace playground and just… look up at the sky. When you would try to sneak kisses at me. When the first time I got mad at you, that date… The day when we were SUPPOSED to watch Step Up 3… but didn’t and instead we went to all those parks and went to… All those places we did, that I would have never went if you weren’t with me. Ahh… & when we actually DID go see step up 3. & how you were trying to be gentleman. AHh (: & when you came to “do homework” with me after new gen and you let everyone know, wasn’t scared to hide it. & how you told me you were torn…. And we walked away… but you cept calling me that night and how you told me you missed me. How you told me you cried over me and how you loved me at T.I. how we break up to make up. The first time, at the pier. Oh that was probably the most romantic date ever. Ahh… just walking down that long dock being in your arms, walking like penguins. & how we can get so irritated of each other but then still be able to make up at the end of the night. We DO hurt each other, a lot. And its hard, it really is. I have many faults in that, Sorry, I really am…. I feel bad you have to go through it all with me, being with me, someone that have to hurt you so badly…. I have to admit I loved spending the day at your house. Us, making breakfast together and then you feeding me. Hah love them pancakes. Love being in your arms… Cuddling on the couch. How you told me that it felt like you could just live with me. The times when you would come over and babysit with me. Its real cute, really. It felt like I could spend the rest of my life with you sometimes. I can just spend the rest of my life, playing house with you. Ah. I will keep all that as a loving memory. And once again, I am sorry that we have to end this way. At a point where we both tortured each other so much. A relationship is hard, yeah… It is. And it probably should have been the end for us a long time ago, but all the lovely moments just blinded us. Now, I will say bye bye.

I was even scared to mention about being friends. About… Everything. Hah. I didn’t want to talk about whats gonn happen after this. I know this time no matter how much I wished, you wouldn’t come running back to me calling me every night telling me you miss me. All those letters I wrote, I threw them away… No need for them now. Ah. Friends? We can take time, we can be strong. I will be strong, I promise… Haha I will try. I know I’ve said that so many times before and failed….. Lets have faith again.

Ahhh I have to be honest it seemed almost impossible to imagine life without you, but I guess it comes back so soon. Love is like a whirlpool. Once youre stuck in it, you just panic and can’t think right. But once you find the courage to climb out, you see clearly now, and you can pace yourself now…. You may take a while to clean yourself from the mess, but afterwards you can look back and say “dam. That made me grow stronger”. (:

Love you for loving me the way I was. Really. How you could stick with me. That one time when I fell downtown. Wow. You, sticking with me and hugging me away and letting me hide in your arms. Times like that made me realize, yes, you DO love me.