oh this bitch.

Eddie Rodriguez,
You told me you missed me, that I was beautiful. I missed you, you were my bestfriend. You told me you wanted to hit yourself, you apologized for how much of a douche bag you were, saying your little lies before. You told me you wished that I would liked the new you, instead of liking the you before, because the one before was a jerk. I told you I changed. I told you the shameless things I do. & I felt bad. You told me to stop. You told me to stop hurting others. You said that you loved the old me. I, for a moment, thought it was possible to fall in Love. To change, because someone like you... Someone like YOU did. Remember the days you'd get in so much shit? Get yourself almost killed. I was always by your side. I would try to get you to change. To convince you to stop the weed, stop the drugs... You did, for a few weeks. Remember when you used to hug me so tight and not let go? We'd sway in the hallways. Remember when you'd care so much for me? You told me you missed me, and told me that the first paycheck you get, you will buy me a ticket back to arizona. Ohlala. How many boys have told me that already? LOL. But because of the way you changed, I believed you. You told me that you don't want to be a disapointment to others anymore. You told me to love, to fall. You told me that commitment is not hard when you truely love someone. You made it sound so easy, so possible. You inspired me.


THEN you told me how your little friend anniza offered you to fuck in the bubble bath and you couldn't pass up the offer. I asked you "what about that girlfriend of yours?", you told me you were just gonn tell her on the day of. and then how she'd probably break up but "hopefully join in the action". Oh you nasty little slut. I yelled at you, funny. Cause I remember I'd do that back then too. I realized that I don't oppose the stuff you do as much as I did before, it sickens me how I think its ohkay and "normal" ;x

don't kiss up to me hun. See right thru ya!... even if it may take me a few minutes. LOL. But I still love you thoo :) Heh. Miss you to the maxxx & I can't wait for you and jorge to come visit me in san fran. Ahh... (: I miss those days when we'd hang. Eventually... Eventually. BETTER GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER! Love you :)