One reason why I didn't want to get into a relationship is because I was scared, scared that I wouldn't be strong enough to walk away.... & I proved myself right.
Even though we are just friends, we are still friends who have feelings for each other. Our actions, there is something behind it all. Every time we touch, I feel warm inside....
There were a few times here and there... When I almost kissed you, without realizing. I found myself just going in for a quick peck, haha but then I would play it off. Ooops.

I woke up today mad. You killed my morning, but like I said before. It doesn't effect me as much now, because it keeps happening over and over again. You are ALWAYS in a mood. Always. I swear, at times I want to just blame you for everything.... Hun don't you see I am trying? I try to push all those bad thoughts away, and try to make the best of the moment. I'd give up anything to see you smile, because those are the warmest, the brightest, the smallest thing that can make me go through my day. The small moments, those fun moments. Ohmymy. I wouldn't mind, we don't even have to be lovers by title, because those moments, mean so much more. Those moments.... I really like being friends with you. Really.
But you know what? Seems like all I do is make you depressed, make you sad, make you cry. I don't even know why, why can't it just be... Why can't it just BE? Some say love hurts; others say that that isn't love, that they mistaken love for the tears and the hurt and the depressed times. I'm trying to figure out what love is, but I sure know it is a two way thing. Stop it, just stop it... I need both of us in it to make it work. a RELATIONSHIP is BETWEEN TWO PEOPLE. They have to work together putting the same amount of work, same amount of force, being in sync in order to make this relationship move forward. Its like two wheels, if the left one pushes forward but the right one stops and stays still, it will go no where but in circles. & I believe that's what we are doing....