Not Quite "Home"

I hate being so homesick. I wonder if others miss me like the way I miss them. It sucks that I'm so far away... Don't get me wrong, I love it here :) I can't lie I am in Love with SoCal ><' Just something about the palm trees and the hot breeze at night but I really do love it here. Regardless, that doesn't change the fact that I still linger for "home". People say home is where the heart is, yet I think I left my heart in San Francisco ;) haha. Just kidding.
I always slip up and call my dorm my home now, but it doesn't change the fact that I miss my own bed at home and waking up to the family. It feels so temporary here, even though it is what it is for the next four years unless I move out to the apartments next year, which still won't change much since I would only be a few blocks away. I miss waking up on my bed at home, the noise of the kids running around the house, the smell of the home-cooked meals that my mom makes... Oh man :( it's been so long since I've had a home cooked meal.
I miss the kids the most I have to say. Those were my babies! They could get real annoying at times, but at the end of the day I still loved them. It's sad how they don't have the tendency to call me everyday, but I get it they are busy. I was never home even when I was home, so maybe they are used to be being gone so much :/ wah. Sometimes I feel like I don't have that family anymore, that it's not the same because I moved out... Pretty much. Wahhh!!! ;( cry more.

I can't wait to go back in 2 weeks. It's going to feel great! I just hope I don't get disappointed again like the last time I came home... :( I want to be loved tooo. I just hope all my girls and my homeboys aren't too busy for me!