Puppy Love

oh yes its one of a kind. First you think it may mean the world! Then... You wouldn't even be able to recall what happened. not at all.
I felt so selfish today, I was reading your latest post & I just felt... So Stoopid. He seem like me meant so much to you, and well I guess he was for me too. But right now, the thing is. I try so hard, SOOO soo hard to find that feeling back but I can't. I try to remember the first time I cried so hard for him, and the feeling he made me felt, it was on top of the world hunn. But then I guess thats what you call puppy love, because I swear I can't recall that feeling at all. Maybe its because my body & mind decided to move on, to move on and away from this. I guess I have decided to stop torturing myself, and I wish you could do that too.
Love is a crazy word cutie, it has many highs and lows and truth and false. It has many good & bad etc. etc. etc. It's crazy, wow. trying to remember what I went through makes me laugh at myself. Haha.
&& again, adds up justice for why I can't be in a relationship. Do I really deserve it!? Do you see how I can say I am truely heads over heels for someone then next thing you know, I would be forgetting every moment of it. No matter how magical it may have been at that moment, it WAS AT THAT MOMENT. Not now, not in the future. && Well. See. How can I let anyone else get close to me when I don't even trust myself with someone elses heart?
Please don't fall for me.


(&& No I don't have a killer decease, I will not die soon, this is NOT A Walk To Remember, LOL. Well at least I HOPE I do not have a killer decease! ;O)