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Yes yes hun lately I been feeling pretty down too... It was like yesterday when everything was nice and awesome and I didn't have a care... But these few days have been pretty bad. You know how I should be feeling blessed, even for bad days? Uggh yeah. Lately Not Really. &I feel so bad & useless at times like... Gawdam. Today was your birthday mama & its sad that this family can't even afford to bring you out for a nice dinner or something... Not even flowers. & the sad thing is, I wasn't even gonn be home today.. -.-'

Lately I have been doubting myself a lot... I remembered how in Health Ed last year we had this lesson where theres a piece of paper right, & for everything little thing that brings our mood down, we rip a part of the paper off, according to how bad it makes us feel. && everything that makes us happy, we add some more paper back onto it. See... no matter how small it is. Anything that happens, it does affect that piece of paper. && lately mines been going out of stock. Man. I don't care how small or unimportant those things may be, THEY STILL EFFECT ME. Dammit. I have been cranky & moody & tired, so tired, & IT AINT EVEN MY PERIOD. THAT SHIT PASSED MMKAYS?! So whats with all the PMS symptoms? :O

&& I hate that feeling you get when you could have done something but then never got to it. Because I am such a fucken wimp? Asshole? Jerk? Bitch? I SWEAR. I am hating myself a lot lately... I need a break. From everything. GAH STOP BEING A LITTLE BABY WENXI!

>.> GRRR. "You are your own's worst enemy" So dam true -.-'

You know how the 'adults' keep telling us that we will regret the bad things we did when we grow up? Well see I already do. Like how I didn't do my best, how I FEEL SO DAM STOOPID ALREADY.



so so stressed. need to scream. need to shout. gah. GAHHH!

Need a stress ball -.-'